We wonder wheter we are right or wrong. It's still raining and I want you to be around, relieving me from this dreary feeling that you don't want to see more of me. I want you to be here to relieve me from this monotonous day. Again I am watching a lady explaining something to me through a camera. I am sure that all she says is important, that I need to know about it, but she seems to be so far away. Her lower lip slightly twitches and I can see the glare of the screen reflecting on her glasses. She is so white and I keep thinking about you, about your moral considerations, about what you said: "It wasn't me". I think it was you, but you trying to deny it makes me feel lost. I want your warm body next to me, I want to be lying in bed with you again, no matter what, no matter if you think it's wrong and if you feel you are someone else. You relieve me from my pain, you make the world go away and I feel so light, as if a burden was taken off my shoulders because when I am with you everything else just disappears to leave me alone with your so much liked company.
Todo esto es una mierda, si realmente no sientes nada no veo por qué tienes que embarcarte en tus dudas morales. ¿Por qué me dices que es sólo eso y luego empiezas a decir que está mal? ¿A qué le tienes miedo? Ambos sabemos, y de sobra, que no vas a enamorarte de mí y yo tendré cuidado de no hacer semejante estupidez otra vez. ¿No puedes entender que sólo quiero tus piernas alrededor? Tu cara enfrente de la mía para mirarme, para sorprenderme de tu sorpresa, de tu azoro y de cómo haces las cosas como impelida por una fuerza que parece ajena, pero que en realidad te viene de dentro. Y si es algo físico pues es algo físico, no hay que ponerle nombres, no tienes que preguntarme si estoy enamorado de ti. Y si simplemente no quieres verme más pues hay que decirlo.
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